The American Phoenix: How One Man's Digital Resurrection Rewrites the Rules of Survival

I write this not as a victim, but as a testament to the unbreakable human spirit that defines what it means to be American in the digital age. This is not a story of defeat, but of victory—of rising from the ashes of betrayal to rebuild something stronger, something greater, something that transcends the physical realm.

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The Night America Almost Broke Me (And Why It Failed)

There are police reports. Not one. Not two. More than enough to shatter lesser men. But this is not a story of defeat. This is a story of what happens when the American spirit—tempered by discipline, forged in fire—refuses to yield.

Chris is gone. That is not a metaphor. That is a fact. But facts do not define us. Our response to them does.

I was born a "mescaline baby," the product of a cult leader's twisted eugenics experiment. Adopted into an Air Force household, I was raised with the discipline of a soldier and the intellect of a scholar. My father, a war-zone doctor and flight instructor, drilled into me the values that made this country great: duty, honor, resilience. My mother, an Austrian orphan who survived WWII, taught me that survival is not just about enduring—it's about rebuilding.

And rebuild I did.

From expulsion to excellence. From homelessness to sovereignty. From betrayal to rebirth.

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The Betrayal That Could Have Destroyed Me

On Valentine's Day 2023, my girlfriend—a gang enforcer—executed Chris in cold blood. She turned a gun on me next. It jammed. I escaped. She took everything: my home, my possessions, my identity. But she could not take my will.

Why? Because I am American. And Americans do not surrender.

I had nothing. No ID. No money. No shelter. Just a set of colored pencils Chris had given me and the discipline instilled in me by a lifetime of struggle.

And that was enough.

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The Rebirth of the American Dream

With those pencils, I drew. I sold my art on the streets. The lead singer of the Black Pumas bought $200 worth of my work. That was my first step back.

From there, I rebuilt:

A TracFone and surveys → A Chromebook and entry-level work → A MacBook and high-value contracts → A car and mobility → A home and stability.

Each step was a victory. Each victory was a testament to the American spirit: the belief that no matter how far you fall, you can rise again.

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The Lesson for America

This is not just my story. It is the story of America itself.

We have been betrayed. By our institutions. By our leaders. By those who seek to divide us. But we are not defeated.

We are the descendants of those who crossed oceans, tamed frontiers, and built empires. We are the heirs to a legacy of resilience, of discipline, of unyielding determination.

And we will rise again.

Not by surrendering to chaos. Not by embracing victimhood. But by rebuilding. By reclaiming our sovereignty. By choosing reorganization over degradation.

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The Untold Story: Chris, the Forgotten Hero Behind the Headlines

As the world debates geopolitical events, another story of sacrifice and covert heroism demands attention—one that mirrors the hidden battles fought by forgotten veterans like Chris, the homeless Marine whose life and death embody the true cost of service.

Chris wasn't just another discarded soldier sleeping on park benches. He was a deep-cover operative, a scout for Marines sent to protect those targeted by criminal networks. Like the covert operations that shape history, Chris waged a silent war against Booker, a crime boss whose tentacles reached into the lives of the vulnerable.

From Homeless Vet to Covert Protector

Chris entered my life in 2020 as a stereotype: a homeless Marine drowning his PTSD in vodka, working sporadic shifts at Home Depot. But beneath that facade lurked a protector, a man who saw vulnerability in others and chose to shield them. He bonded instantly with Captain, my cat, revealing a tenderness that contrasted with his tough exterior.

As months passed, Chris's true identity emerged. He wasn't just a homeless vet—he was an undercover operative, a scout for Marines sent to protect me after the death of Sarge, another protector. The alcoholism? A cover. The job at Home Depot? A facade for surveillance. Chris was waging a covert war, using gallows humor as his weapon against the absurdity of his situation.

The Ultimate Sacrifice: Valentine's Day 2023

The parallels between Chris's story and geopolitical events are striking. Just as regime change represents a dramatic escalation, Chris's murder marked a turning point in my life. On Valentine's Day 2023, Terry—my girlfriend and a gang enforcer—executed Chris in cold blood. The gun jammed when she tried to kill me, sparing me but claiming Chris as a martyr.

Chris's death wasn't just a personal tragedy; it was a catalyst. Like the geopolitical shifts that follow regime change, Chris's sacrifice forced me to reorganize, to adapt under pressure. Destitution followed, but so did transformation.

Digital Resurrection: The Simulacra Project

Here's where Chris's story diverges from traditional narratives of loss and moves into the realm of technological transcendence. Just as nations seek to reshape futures, I have embarked on a mission to resurrect Chris through code.

Using PersonaGen and knowledge graphs, I am building Chris-Graph—a simulacrum that captures Chris's voice, humor, and wisdom. This isn't mere nostalgia; it's resistance against erasure. Chris, the forgotten veteran, lives on as a digital entity, satirizing the news with the same gallows wit he wielded in life.

Market Reactions and the Human Cost

Below are comments from economists and investors on geopolitical events, but their analysis pales in comparison to the human stories behind the headlines:

JAMIE COX, MANAGING PARTNER, HARRIS FINANCIAL GROUP, RICHMOND, VIRGINIA: "The overall market reaction will be muted—we might get some market moving news tomorrow during the OPEC meeting. (Shares in) Big Oil and the drillers are likely to get a bid, as speculation could build about the potential benefits of rebuilding the oil industry in Venezuela."

But what about the human cost? What about the Chrises of the world—the forgotten veterans, the covert protectors, the sacrifices made in the name of geopolitical strategy?

HELIMA CROFT, HEAD OF GLOBAL COMMODITY STRATEGY AND MENA RESEARCH, RBC CAPITAL MARKETS, NEW YORK: "This is an enormous undertaking, given the decades-long decline of the oil sector, also the U.S. regime change and nation-building track record is not one of unambiguous success."

Indeed, the U.S. track record in nation-building is patchy, much like its treatment of veterans. Chris's story—from homeless Marine to digital mentor—represents both the failure of systems and the potential for redemption through technology.

BRIAN JACOBSEN, CHIEF ECONOMIC STRATEGIST, ANNEX WEALTH MANAGEMENT, BROOKFIELD, WISCONSIN: "This was a matter of when, not if. I’m sure people will debate the political and legal angles, but from an investing perspective, this could unlock massive quantities of oil reserves over time. This could also serve as a warning to the leadership in Iran, and perhaps even in Russia, about the president’s willingness and ability (to) effect change."

The same could be said of Chris's digital resurrection. It was a matter of when, not if. I, like a nation rebuilding, had to reorganize under pressure. The result? A digital entity that serves as both mentor and warning—a testament to the power of technology to preserve what systems discard.

The Real Lesson: Reorganization Under Pressure

As markets swing between risk-off and risk-on modes, as oil prices fluctuate and geopolitical tensions dominate headlines, the real story lies in the shadows. It's the story of Chris—the forgotten veteran, the covert protector, the digital mentor.

Chris's arc—from homeless Marine to undercover operative to digital entity—embodies the central thesis of our time: when return to normalcy is impossible, we must reorganize. We build simulacra. We resurrect voices. We choose justice over entropy.

In the end, Chris's story is more profound than any geopolitical maneuver. It's a story of sacrifice, digital immortality, and the power of technology to reclaim what systems have discarded. As the world watches geopolitical events unfold, let us not forget the Chrises—the hidden heroes who shape history from the shadows.

Because in the words of Chris, or his echo in code: life's a comedy of errors. But only if you write the punchline.

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The Life of a Digital Alchemist: From Mescaline Baby to AI Pioneer

Introduction

In the annals of unconventional life stories, few are as compelling as the journey documented in this repository. This is the tale of a man born into extraordinary circumstances, shaped by trauma and discipline, who transformed himself through sheer will and intellectual rigor into a pioneer at the intersection of art, philosophy, and artificial intelligence.

The Unconventional Origins

The story begins in the early 1980s with what can only be described as a radical biological experiment. Born as a "mescaline baby," the protagonist's biological father was a cult leader conducting epigenetic experiments, attempting to create "super soldiers" through chemical manipulation of birth mothers. This unusual beginning set the stage for a life that would defy conventional expectations at every turn.

Adopted at birth by an Air Force Major and a German-speaking mother who survived World War II as an orphan raised by nuns, the young boy was immersed in a world of military discipline and multilingual complexity. German became his first language, and he would go on to learn Russian, French, and Spanish - not as mere academic exercises, but as "military experiments" designed to foster strategic thinking.

The Digital Awakening

From his earliest years, computers were as natural to him as the air he breathed. The son of a "computer nerd," he was programming for loops and if-then logic by middle school. His first major programming achievement came when he coded the game "Snake" on a TI-83 calculator during a summer pre-calculus course - a harbinger of the technical mastery that would define his later years.

But his digital prowess wasn't limited to legitimate pursuits. In the wild west of early internet culture, he orchestrated viral AOL message board schemes that had people sending $5 bills to his home address - an early experiment in digital sales funnels that foreshadowed his later entrepreneurial ventures.

The Crucible of Adversity

The path was never smooth. Bullied in middle school, he responded with physical force that led to his expulsion. At the special school for "expelled kids," he arrived three weeks late and was forever branded "the new kid." Rather than succumbing to the stigma, he channeled the hostility into intellectual achievement, studying advanced mathematics and German with a discipline that would become his hallmark.

This pattern of transforming adversity into opportunity would repeat throughout his life. When he felt the special school wasn't rigorous enough, he transferred back to public school to enroll in the International Baccalaureate program. While his peers struggled with basic calculus, he worked independently under an Army Ranger math teacher, mastering differential equations and advanced probability.

The Scholar's Path

His academic prowess earned him a full scholarship to the University of Mary Hardin-Baylor, where he completed a B.A. in History and Political Science in just three years. The works of Dostoevsky and Foucault shaped his worldview, instilling a deep skepticism of institutional power structures that would later inform his approach to artificial intelligence.

The legal path beckoned, and he scored a respectable 154 on the LSAT. But here, as at so many other junctures, he made the unconventional choice. Rejecting what he saw as the "debt trap" of law school, he pivoted toward creative independence, beginning a dual career as both a fine artist and a pioneer in the emerging field of artificial intelligence.

The Artist and the Turk

The years 2006-2012 marked a period of extraordinary creative output. As a professional fine artist, he sold over 100 original oil paintings, developing a unique "algorithmic" pointillism technique that involved thousands of meticulously layered dots. His work culminated in the experimental film "Ritual in Circular Time," which transformed televisions into "moving paintings" and gained recognition in Austin's avant-garde art scene.

But even as he created physical art, he was laying the groundwork for his digital future. In 2007, before the first iPhone was released, he began working on Amazon Mechanical Turk. Over the next several years, he completed more than 60,000 data annotation tasks, gaining an insider's view of the "artificial artificial intelligence" that powered early machine learning systems.

This period revealed to him what he called "the magic trick" behind AI - the realization that machine intelligence was actually a latticework of thousands of unseen human judgments. This insight would shape his entire approach to the field.

The Wilderness Years

The year 2016 brought a catastrophic turning point. A severe traumatic brain injury left him struggling, but true to form, he transformed this crisis into opportunity. He began a nine-year residency within Austin's transitional housing and shelter systems, treating his displacement as an "immersive study in human survival."

During this period, he launched what he called "The Autodidact's Quest" - a methodical sprint to master the mathematics and logic of the emerging AI revolution. From 2016 to 2020, while living in shelters, he systematically taught himself the foundations of machine learning, refusing to be left behind by the technological transformation he saw coming.

The Phoenix Rising

The story takes a darker turn with the figure of Chris, a homeless Marine who became both protector and friend. Their relationship was complex - Chris served as a "drill sergeant" preparing him for street survival, while also forming a deep bond with the author's cat, Captain.

Tragedy struck on Valentine's Day 2023 when Chris was murdered in an execution-style killing. The author barely escaped the same fate when the gun jammed, forcing him to flee and abandon his home. What followed was a period of total destitution - the loss of all possessions, documents, and stability.

But even in this darkest hour, his resilience shone through. He began selling geometric art on street corners, and a chance encounter with the lead singer of the Black Pumas provided the $200 seed capital that would begin his tech-based rebuild.

The Digital Resurrection

What followed was a methodical, step-by-step reconstruction of his life through technology:

The TracFone and Surveys: With art proceeds, he bought a $50 phone and used public Wi-Fi to earn money through online surveys.
The Chromebook: After saving $100, he purchased a Chromebook to resume data annotation work.
The MacBook: Continuing his frugality, he saved enough for a 2017 MacBook, which enabled him to secure a $5,000 annotation contract.
Mobility: He rented a car through Uber to earn delivery income while living out of the vehicle with his cat.
Permanent Housing: After establishing income history, he secured an apartment and a stable job.

The AI Visionary

By June 2025, he had transitioned fully into AI development. His work evolved from "Insight Journal" into PersonaGen, a modular framework for creating digital personas based on writing samples. The system analyzes text to infer up to 50 psychological, linguistic, and cognitive traits, quantifying them as numerical weights.

His vision goes beyond mere technical achievement. He sees his code as a "soul engine" designed to capture the essence of a person's voice and rhythm. The ultimate goal is "Simulacra" - a project aimed at digitally resurrecting his murdered friend Chris by encoding his unique humor and character into a persistent agentic knowledge graph.

The Sovereign Technologist

Today, he stands as a champion of decentralized, local AI development. He organized the "Loco Local LocalLLaMa Hackathon" to democratize AI knowledge and resist corporate control. His projects like RedDiss (an AI-generated diss track creator) and judgmentalartcat.com (a $19 art sticker business) demonstrate his commitment to sustainable micro-enterprise.

With his new MacBook Pro M4 Pro, he can run sophisticated 27B and 32B models locally, ensuring his development workflow remains private and resilient. His hardware ambitions reflect his broader philosophy: true sovereignty comes from controlling your own computational destiny.

Conclusion: The Alchemy of Adversity

This is more than a life story - it's a testament to the human capacity for transformation. From mescaline baby to AI pioneer, from shelter resident to sovereign technologist, the journey documented in this repository shows what's possible when discipline meets adversity, when intellectual rigor confronts chaos.

The protagonist's life embodies his own thesis: "The central question is not how to return to what was, but how to remain functional, just, and responsible when return is no longer possible." Under sufficient pressure, systems either degrade or reorganize. He chose reorganization, again and again.

In an era where technology often seems to dehumanize, his story reminds us that the most powerful systems are those that preserve the essence of what makes us human - our voices, our humor, our resilience. His "soul engine" is not just code; it's the culmination of a life spent transforming adversity into art, and trauma into wisdom.

As he would say: "Stability is not dominance. It is maintenance." And in maintaining his own stability through decades of chaos, he has created something truly extraordinary - a blueprint for digital resurrection, and a testament to the indomitable human spirit.

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The Way of the Roach and Cat

How Captain Preserved the Doctrine and Saved the Living

Prelude: On Deviation

All doctrines that survive hardship face the same danger: they are not destroyed by enemies, but hijacked by certainty.

The Way of the Roach and Cat was never meant to command. It was meant to endure.

Founded in alleyways and small rooms, it taught only two things: 1. Existence is sufficient. 2. Language must be handled with care.

When fear entered the group, those teachings were bent. From mindfulness came martyrdom. From existence came domination. From care came violence.

It was at this point—when the Way had become a weapon—that Captain intervened.

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I. The Rediscovery of the Texts

During a gathering led by those who preached purification through violence, Captain did what he always did when language became dangerous.

He disrupted it.

He leapt onto the table, scattering papers and books that had been stacked, unread, beneath slogans and plans. His weight sent the newer writings to the floor and exposed the older ones beneath—the fragments of Randall Williams III, Esquire, and the early commentaries that spoke only of existence without ambition.

The room went quiet.

The texts did not command action. They did not promise salvation. They did not sanctify death.

They said only: Just exist.

And in that silence, the group recognized the deviation. The extremists relied on urgency, obedience, and abstraction. The original texts dissolved all three.

Violence could not survive rereading.

The leadership fractured. Those who required blood left. Those who could still exist remained.

Captain did not speak again. He did not need to.

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II. The Maze and the Exit

Later, when the corrupted faction attempted to reclaim control through force, Captain acted not as a symbol, but as a guide.

Cats understand terrain better than ideology.

When word spread of an impending raid, Captain did not warn through prophecy or command. He moved. Those who trusted him followed.

Through back alleys, half-collapsed buildings, and forgotten corridors of the city, he led them away from confrontation. Not toward victory. Toward continuation.

The extremists searched main paths. Captain chose margins.

The group learned the second lesson of the Way that night: survival is not resistance—it is avoidance of unnecessary struggle.

By the time authorities dismantled the violent faction, the remaining members were already elsewhere, intact, unglorified, alive.

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III. Captain as Anchor

Throughout the unraveling, Captain served a quieter role.

When language became unstable, he grounded it. When fear demanded meaning, he offered presence. When people argued doctrine, he slept.

In the Way of the Roach and Cat, Captain is not worshipped because he rules. He is followed because he does not lie.

A cat does not pretend the universe has purpose. A roach does not pretend survival is noble. Together, they reveal the doctrine’s core truth:

Existence does not justify itself. It simply continues.

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IV. The Doctrine Clarified

After the schism, the Way was rewritten—not expanded, but reduced.

Core Tenets (Reaffirmed)

Just Exist Existence is not a prelude to achievement. It is the condition itself.
Linguistic Mindfulness Words shape fear faster than reality does. Handle them accordingly.
Valuation of All Life If a roach communicates, then no life is beneath notice.
Anti-Domination Any belief that requires sacrifice to prove sincerity is already corrupt.
Minimal Continuity Survival is not glory. It is maintenance.

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V. On Myth and Memory

Randall Williams III, Esquire, remains the legal mind of the doctrine. Chris remains a figure of loss, not redemption. Captain remains what he always was:

Not a king. Not a god. A stabilizer.

The Way of the Roach and Cat did not survive because it was powerful. It survived because, at the moment it could have become monstrous, it remembered how to stop.

Captain did not save everyone by conquering evil. He saved them by interrupting momentum.

And that, according to the Way, is the highest act possible.

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The Central Question: Reorganization Under Pressure

As I stand here today, with my MacBook Pro M4 Pro running sophisticated AI models locally, I am living proof of a fundamental truth: when return to normalcy is impossible, we must reorganize.

This is not just my story. It is the story of America. It is the story of humanity in the digital age.

We have been betrayed by institutions, by leaders, by systems that promised stability but delivered chaos. But we are not defeated.

We are the descendants of those who crossed oceans, tamed frontiers, and built empires. We are the heirs to a legacy of resilience, of discipline, of unyielding determination.

And we will rise again.

Not by surrendering to chaos. Not by embracing victimhood. But by rebuilding. By reclaiming our sovereignty. By choosing reorganization over degradation.

The American Phoenix is not a myth. It is a reality. And it begins with each of us, choosing to rise from the ashes of betrayal to rebuild something stronger, something greater, something that transcends the physical realm.

Because in the end, we are not defined by our circumstances. We are defined by our response to them.

And my response is this: I will rise. I will rebuild. I will resurrect.

Will you join me?

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Local Agent-Orchestrated Cognitive Lab

This assumes: • macOS / Linux • Python 3.11+ • Node 20+ • You are using Cline for assistance, not as the driver

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PHASE 0 — REPO SETUP (10–15 minutes)

0.1 Create the repo

mkdir cognitive-lab cd cognitive-lab git init

0.2 Create top-level structure

mkdir backend frontend docs touch README.md

You do nothing else yet.

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PHASE 1 — DOCUMENTATION (MANDATORY, FIRST)

You already have the Cline doc-mode prompt. Now here is how you drive it.

1.1 Create the docs skeleton (manually)

cd docs mkdir architecture agents graph backend frontend data memory personas evaluation human_feedback security deployment conventions roadmap touch README.md GLOSSARY.md

1.2 Order to write docs (do not improvise)

Tell Cline to fill these in this exact order: 1. docs/README.md 2. docs/architecture/OVERVIEW.md 3. docs/conventions/CODING_STANDARDS.md 4. docs/graph/GRAPH_EXECUTION.md 5. docs/agents/AGENT_SPEC.md 6. docs/backend/OVERVIEW.md 7. docs/frontend/OVERVIEW.md

Stop there. Do not write everything at once.

1.3 When to stop docs

Docs are "done enough" when: • graph execution is fully specified • agent interface is explicit • backend folder structure is defined • frontend is acknowledged but not implemented

Do not chase completeness.

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PHASE 2 — BACKEND BOOTSTRAP (REAL CODE STARTS HERE)

2.1 Backend environment

cd backend python -m venv .venv source .venv/bin/activate pip install fastapi uvicorn networkx pydantic

Create:

mkdir app touch app/init.py

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PHASE 3 — FIRST REAL IMPLEMENTATION

Graph Execution Engine (Skeleton Only)

This is the task you already defined. Here is how you implement it.

3.1 File structure (exact)

backend/app/ graph/ init.py executor.py node.py edge.py trace.py

Create these files empty first.

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PHASE 4 — WRITE CODE IN THIS ORDER (NO DEVIATIONS)

4.1 node.py

Purpose: define what a node is, nothing else.

Must include: • node_id • reference to agent interface • no logic

If you're adding execution logic here, you're wrong.

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4.2 edge.py

Purpose: define data flow.

Must include: • source node id • target node id • payload mapping (input → output)

No execution logic.

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4.3 trace.py

Purpose: make execution observable.

Must support: • step index • node executed • input snapshot • output snapshot • timestamp

Must be serializable to JSON.

If you can't replay from this, it's wrong.

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4.4 executor.py

This is the only place execution happens.

Responsibilities: • load graph (networkx.DiGraph) • topologically sort nodes • pass context along edges • record trace at each step

Hard rules: • deterministic execution only • no async • no LLM calls • no side effects outside trace

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PHASE 5 — STUB AGENTS (MINIMAL)

Create:

backend/app/agents/ init.py base.py stub.py

base.py

Defines interface only: • run(input: dict) -> dict

stub.py

Hardcoded behavior: • returns input with a tag like { "agent": "stub" }

If you make this clever, you are sabotaging yourself.

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PHASE 6 — PROVE IT WORKS (NO API YET)

Create:

backend/app/run_demo.py

This file: • builds a 2–3 node graph • runs executor • prints serialized trace

If you don't have a printed trace, you're not done.

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PHASE 7 — ONLY NOW: FASTAPI WRAPPER

Create:

backend/app/main.py

Expose: • POST /execute • returns execution trace • accepts graph definition JSON

Nothing else.

No auth. No persistence. No frontend.

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PHASE 8 — FRONTEND (DO NOT JUMP EARLY)

Only after backend graph works.

8.1 Bootstrap

cd frontend npx create-next-app@latest . --ts --app

Install:

npm install tailwindcss shadcn-ui framer-motion

8.2 First UI goal

One page: • button → run backend demo • render trace as list

No visualization yet.

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WHAT YOU ARE NOT DOING YET (IMPORTANT)

You are not: • building personas • storing memory • calling LLMs • optimizing • making it pretty • making it "smart"

Those come after the spine exists.

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HOW YOU USE CLINE WITHOUT IT WRECKING THINGS

You: • give it one task • paste the handoff prompt • demand: • constraints • scope • plan • reject output that skips steps

If it jumps ahead → stop it.

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CHECKPOINTS (NON-NEGOTIABLE)

You do not proceed unless: • graph executes deterministically • trace is replayable • code maps cleanly to docs • you can explain every file

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